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I was at a friend’s house recently when I met a newly wed girl. She was bubbly and chirpy and full of life. I looked at her and though she reminded me of someone. Then I realized that it was me, not the person I am today, but who I was about ten years ago. I had the same happy puppy nack of making friends and getting excited about a million things a day.

Cut to the present to a different me. A more mature one I would like to think, but in gaining maturity did I forget to have fun along the way? Did I get so wrapped up in home, son, husband and family that I had no time for myself anymore? It happened so slowly I never even realized that it was so. I have precious little time for myself these days. I keep feeling its a phase and it will pass then I’ll be free and have time to do all the unfinished things I always wanted to.

Today the realization hit home, its been eight years since I got married and I don’t know where they went. The time flew by with settling into new homes, having a baby, raising him, looking after husband and home, being an ideal Air Force Wife. Duties and responsibilities never scared me, I was well versed with handling them. What does scare me is that while I am busy doing a million things that society says I must, have I forgotten what it is that I want to do?

There are enough dreams and aspirations of my own or at least there used to be. Now I don’t even remember what I give more priority to. It is important for me to have my own identity as a person, maybe that’s why working online was such a god sent. It helped me make a place for myself over and above the duties and responsibilities that I have had to carry out. Yet I miss the fun angle.

I miss being able to take off to see a movie when I would like to.  I miss being able to walk down a busy street window shopping without a care in the world. I miss my dancing most of all. On a regular day there never seems to be any time to do something special that I would like to. And of late its been the case on even special days. I think its time I put the chores and duties and work on a back burner and began to enjoy my life again.